I wonder for how long it is going to continue, why am I so foolish, so unlucky. I don’t understand actually what the hell is going on? Feel like a prize idiot, a teen, whose expectations are always failed to come true. That’s annoying, not fair as for me. Well, talking about justice, everyone thinks it is when they get what they want. When will I get what I want, what I deserve, what I ought to have. Maybe now I have all this but I just can’t realize that this is all I deserve and the biggest problem of mine is TO REALISE THIS FACT! Maybe no need to hope the situation will improve. Maybe somehow I failed to notice the improvement. Well, actually, I won’t say I am so bad sometimes. But sometimes it is unbearable. I am always in the same situation with the same type of guys. And it’s completely my fault, ‘cause I have to respect myself, I mustn’t let sb treat me like a rubbish. That’s it, that’s the key element, but I also have to REALISE THIS FACT! Interesting to know how long it will take me to realize this. Maybe all my life and still I won’t be able to realize it. But I am sure about what I should start from is self-respect. Yep, self-respect. Do u see what I mean? Yep, I hope u see and I wish I would see. Coming to the conclusion that all men are f…ing asses u need to get accustomed to the idea that unfortunately u won’t be able to find a decent person, I mean the one, who really deserves u. The problem is that the portrait of this decent man looks like this: handsome like Jude Law (my favourite one))) rich like Rotshield , clever and talented like Oscar Wilde, etc. Oh, by the way he must adore u, predict ur every wish, make all ur wishes come true. Sometimes I just want to get blind drunk not to understand that these are dreams, which hardly can come true. So just should stop dreaming.